The fear of the Lord is the beginning of all wisdom: the fear of the Lord is to hate evil: in order to hate evil I need to see the consequences of my choices. The greatest evil is iniquity ie. I will be my own god by deciding right and wrong, doing this “right” in my own strength and moaning and groaning about how tough it was and how much God owes me and others should appreciate me.
The result? BURN OUT, NUMB OUT, WEAR OUT, FUZZ OUT
BURN-OUT: comes from spending my Serotonin, Nor-epinephrine and Dopamine faster than I can replace it. If you buy a car and decide that water looks a lot like gasoline and is a lot cheaper, so you fill the tank with water; don’t call up the designer and complain it won’t run on water. I am designed to have enough Serotonin Nor-epinephrine and Dopamine to handle today’s evil if I sleep peacefully, eat well, exercise and handle situations with help from God and the help of those he has placed in my life. I need to cast all my burdens on Christ. If I don’t, I will be too anxious, tearful, despairing, irritable, withdrawn, overwhelmed etc (serotonin calms passion) and I will not be able to turn off the feeling when I realize that it is excessive or just makes no sense. I will not be able to concentrate, organize, plan, gather resources and in general to think. I will not feel like doing things and when I make myself, I will find no joy or satisfaction, all will be pointless and boring and I will dread the thought of doing the same over and over and over.
NUMB-OUT: comes from the constant dumping out of Glutamate which is supposed to alert the cortex. Instead the cortex gets tired of the constant alerts and stops listening So I begin to shut out the world around me and go into fantasy worlds or just focus on my own misery.
WEAR-OUT: comes from constant dumping of adrenaline cortisol and thyroid into the blood and results in practically every illness known to man. When God promised to keep the Israelis well, that was a conditional promise based on them resting in Him. Deuteronomy 7:15
FUZZ-OUT: comes from the accumulated damage of an unhealthy life, poor sleep, poor nutrition, poor cardio exercise, poor hydration, drugs, many medications, lack of problem solving brain exercise. it results in my having trouble concentrating remembering and problem solving. My brain can easily see the negatives but can’t hold still and see the positives and is often so fuzzy that it can’t even begin to grapple with life. Romans 12: But be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.
The worst result is that I am trapped. To change and grow I need to see the issues, be humble, predict, prepare, catch myself, encourage myself, remember and report to my support people. But I can’t do any of these things so: I NEED GOD’S GRACE. Well that’s not so bad because I HAVE IT!